Thoughts

I look at you
I think
All the time
Why?
Just can't stop the thought
Just can't stop the pain
Though I want
I want it badly
I wonder why
My mind is always with you
That question in my head
It's there
It doesn't leave
It's surreal
It's painful
It's hopeless
And it's still there
No promise to leave
Ever

©Viktoria Buben 2011

Lies

It was the best time of my life
Summer all year 'round
A garden full with flowers
Just for us
I was glad
You were too
So thought I
But no
Suddendly I realized what I pushed away
The earth stood still
Oh, so many lies
Now I'm sitting here
Covered with tears
Thinking about the three words
I was betrayed by:
I love you
Oh, I never want to hear this again
Don't want to feel the pain again
Don't want so many lies again

 ©Viktoria Buben 2011

Something

Looking up
There she shines
Majestic
Impressing
A glowing ball
A perfect star
Necessary
Providing heat
Spending light
Allowing life
Without her something's missing
Something important
Very important
It's the same with you

©Viktoria Buben 2011

Music

Music is a present
Music is a joy
If you sing, your heart sings
If you dance, it enjoys
With a song on yor lips
You will smile all the time
And your heart will smile with you
Through your eyes, which will shine

 ©Viktoria Buben 2011

Something precious

It's precious
It's necessary
It's a wonder
It's a need
For everybody
I can't imagine
That I could live without it
Neither anyone else
It gives you hope when it's hopeless
It helps you up when you fall
It's with you when you're lonely
It lets you smile when you cry
It's friendship

©Viktoria Buben 2011

Memories

For Japan:

Memories
Water
All together
All mixed up
A bunch of thoughts
A lot of lies
Woven into that:
Me
And the water
The dark deep waves
The sound
Strange
The picture
Surreal
The thought
Impossible
Hidden under a layer of sorrow
Under a cloud of pain
Leaving me no choice
Only surrender
No
Not even that
I wouldn't be able to
Which leaves me plan B
But how?
Where?
What happened to you?
I try to think even if it's painful
I try to remember although it's excruciating
And then I get it
All at once
I remember
I wish I wouldn't

©Viktoria Buben 2011

So much

Looking around
So much to see
Snowflakes here
Sunshine there
Walking around
So much to feel
Winter's cold here
Summer's heat there
Turning around
So much to taste
Bitter tears here
So sweet love there
Sitting down
So much to think of
Stormy today
Sunny tomorrow

©Viktoria Buben 2011

Feelings

I'm standing here
Beneath you
But I feel alone
So alone
I feel like being locked in a room
Fireflames everywhere
No way to escape from this prison
I feel like being in the water
Without oxygen
No way to breath
I feel like a plant without sunshine
No way to grow
I feel like myself without you
No way to live

©Viktoria Buben 2011

Winter

(we need snow...)

Looking out of the window
What do I hear?
What do I see?
What do I feel?
I hear the wind
Singing its endless song
I see the snow falling down
Until the last bit of nude soil is gone
I feel the cold in your heart 
Wondering where it comes from


©Viktoria Buben 2011

Teardrops

Gone away

Where?

No answer

Gone

Like a snowflake in the summer

Like my teardrops in the ocean

Fast

Like a deer in the mountains

Like a bird in the sky

There is no way to follow

There is no way to find you

A teardrop

Running down my face

A second

A third

More and more

There is no way to hold them

There is no way to stop them

They’re falling into my cup of tea

It seems like an endless ocean

It seems like an endless stream

I think of us

All the time

About once when we met

About now when you’re gone

About the time we spent together

About the things you said

About the deep blue ocean

About the black in the night

I think of my salty teardrops

There in my face

Why did you leave me?

Why did you hurt me like that?

A salty teardrop runs into my mouth

The taste of farewell

I’m thinking about me

I’m thinking about you

I ‘m thinking about us

I’ve chosen the silence

I have made my choice

Your train is now leaving

I’m leaving with you

©Viktoria Buben 2011