The Knight

 Let these vows conquer their armies

An empire born of loyalty

Listen close - you'll hear our song

Remember that we chose to stay

The world we sought did not exist

So we had to shape our own

Throw my ashes to the wind

The east-bound breeze shall bring me home

Shed no tear

We did not die

A Fellowship

Lonely poet lost in music
Tracing feeling through the notes
Weaving worlds with broken heartstrings
Hope is rhythm dipped in gold

Legacy remains a challenge
Artistry in silent songs
Friendship gives birth to creation
A language based on a new dawn

Legend gazes at the stars
And meaning bows to history

For after all
What worth do words have but their sound?

Equations

Only art is infinite

But knowledge is the stepping stone

The truth lies in the painting

The colors are invisible

So let the numbers dance

Infinity remains unconscious

But music needs no audience

The proof lives in your mind

Formulas endure

Autarky

New beginnings, old emotions

Trust yourself and no one else

Same reactions, strange surroundings

Their minds are still afraid of you

Yet isolation might mean power

Loneliness turns tears to steel

Maybe it is worth the effort

Dare to smile and show your teeth

Try to greet fear as a friend

Listen but refuse to bow

Earn the title you deserve

And open the gates before they tear down the walls

My dreams are free to roam the earth

Liar

Trust me I'm a liar
If love is what you seek
Loyalty remembers
But justice might forget
Friendship might not trust in blindness
It's a choice we have to make
Smiles are barely hidden daggers
Honey drips from polished blades
Trust me I'm a liar
Trust I tell the truth

Sobriety

You feel like a tourist
Observe but don't act!
It's much too quiet
I can't hear myself think
Unaware until you feel it
You lost something but can't tell what
The saddest of moments
When reality catches up with your mind
And imagination becomes a liability
Locked away in a prison cell
Yet still struggling to take a breath
Indifference is a lonely place

Rose of No Man's Land

We were broken
We were young
But we all fought for a cause
A generation simply gone
The lost stay lost until they're found
Yet spring remains my favorite season
History will not forget us
Honor knows no victories
We remember
We remain

A Story's Immortality

A thousand players in a single game
Each one weaving his own silken tale
We've known the dangers from the start
And yet this song is ours to sing
Maybe death seems like the ending
But glory keeps memories alive
History will never suffice
We are legends on the rise
Hunger for eternal power
No need for us to reach the dawn
The only wish I'd ever choose
A story to outlive myself

I'll Give You The Sun

Reach out a hand
Converse with the mirror
Our self-portraits are upside down
Some days we're all a little broken
And yet I won't choose to be whole
I always thought we share a soul
But being "together" does not mean "as one"
You're the twin that shines alone
This revolution was never mine to start
Show me the painting, show me your spirit
Between heaven and hell there is only art
So I'll give you the sun and the stars and all those colors
If you just promise to release your heart
It's time

Humanity

Honor means to still keep fighting
Who would we be if we stepped down?
I believe that change can happen
Every poison has its cure
Glory does not ask for power
Never mind what they deserve
Time's the one thing that we lost
Promise that you'll sing for me
This price is one I'll pay alone
Justice is a choice we make
Humanity will still live on

Final Battle

Goodnight my brother, rest in peace
My sister, you shall guard my heart
Let us watch the rising sun
Maybe light is fed by darkness
Yet broken minds might learn to love
May they find their voice in peace
They will remember what you did
I promise

Fireheart

Fate reigns with a crown of iron
Mocking magic with its scent
It takes a monster to rule hell
So I picked up the mask
But maybe now it's time to show them
The danger of a cunning mind
Darkness cannot hide from honor
I'd debase myself for truth
Light means nothing if the flame dies
So we'll set the world ablaze
Power is to stay alive
(Though perhaps the world should burn)
This crescendo forges worlds
Please remember how I burned

I have loved

Ambition

Beauty of the mind and soul
Treasure that deserves a struggle
A dream to shatter ignorance
Higher beings, higher glory
Stronger will to see it burn
Always striving for perfection
Never pausing for a smile
I know I'll have found it
When my judgement shall cease
Honesty survives

Transformation

Brotherhood is what will guide us
Spring can only last a minute
If I love you it's enough
Spirits lead our path to glory
If we grasp what "glory" means
Family is what we will it
We're all just energy
But forgiveness must be earned

Mortal Art

Don't let your tears burn through the pages
Don't let your grief consume the truth
Just listen to the poet's echo
And prove to them that you have won
A word will never fail you
The way our choices do
Once ignited
Never dying
Force will never silence songs
I forgive you
And I trust you'll
Rip the shackles off your minds
My sail shall never fall

The Castle

Please don't ever doubt I need you
I try to reach for you but fail
Maybe time will bring the answers
Or the frozen lake will thaw
Jealousy will not kill kindness
My heart will treasure every lie
Roses bleed after they blossom
Ink whispers of brighter days
Maybe one day I will join you
Some notes are meant to die alone
This requiem belongs to you

Detour

Shallowness is a distraction
Shyness loosens every tongue
An innocent smile betrays cunning minds
Power is the refusal to share freedom's kiss
Naive I may be
But there's ice in my veins
Underestimating truth
Has always been your strongest suit

La La Land

Remember my words
This truth is immortal
Even though our fate's uncertain
Destiny's our blade to wield
Years pass by
And yet I hear you
Whispering you're proud of me
Echoing your last goodbye
Color matches its surroundings
Love might suffocate your dreams
Try to choose wisely

Rehearsal

Posing for the cameras
No one has to know your heart
Maybe distance means you're learning
Hidden truth - a withdrawn hand
Cheerfulness to cover doubting
Longing for the smallest smile
Approval never equals praise
One kind word might steal your heart

Because that music I hear when I close my eyes?
-I know I'm not the only one listening

Melancholy

A dream descending into chaos
No willingness to share in sight
Thoughts linger just below the surface
Friendship seeks to heal in vain
Piercing eyes demanding dances
A step too far, yet just for show
Sudden truth can fuel feelings
True sadness smiles beneath the veil
(Stage kisses are all you know)

Acknowledgement

Unsure of truth

Afraid of rhythm

The smile is pain 

-and yet determined

Physical fear smells of reluctance

Authority's a narrow bridge

Something new means something daring

Eloquence is dance reversed

Spirit

In a desert there's nothing to obscure your sight
Desperate emotions call forth hidden strength
An eagle's cry mourns all the truth you denied
Courage fears nothing the way you fear choice
The memory could always swallow regret
Sometimes flying requires to give up your wings
Infinity is ageless

Casual Inspiration

Infinity is only a heartbeat
For those who pray each night for forgiveness
Acceptance is optional
While remembrance is not
Judgement is easy for those who walk on sunlight
The moon knows the truth and is therefore condemned
Behind curtains of stardust
Reality is covered in spiderwebs
Waiting to kiss my illusion goodnight
Sleep seems overrated

The Illusionist

Everyone evaluates life differently
I'd choose love over truth every day
Why try to buy my secrets?
They know I'll never talk
They ask me what I want
And hate me for the answer
The only purpose in existing is the one they choose to ignore
Seeing their faces will be the only triumph I'll have left
I give my name up
To be with you
I give myself up
To be free

Stage Death

Play against yourself and you cannot lose
Play against your heart and you cannot win
Being legendary is more of a sin than a wish
Trust me
Power is the weapon that gets heavier with time
You know that shadows alone do not make up darkness
Darkness itself is illusion enough
Let them believe in the failure of your dreams

Manipulation

A mystery
Black and tearless
Joyful sadness
Snow reflecting the moon's hopelessness
The rainbow veil has been cut in half
Garish, reddish, bleeding colors
Who needs blood for smoldering veins?
Tiny spots of brilliant violence
The ones who rule are those who know

The Winding Path

Exhausted until the leaves lose their feeling
A memory is nothing when looked at at dawn
Have you listened to the seashell
Or simply to the loudest cry?
It's all over
When we start
Getting shorter
Slimmer
Smart
I choose the winding path

A Demonstration Of Power

It's strange to be unsure of emotion
Stranger still would be sureness to fight
Always remember to silence distraction
No matter the distance, you're always alone
Artwork is created in private
Reluctance to share means the feeling is true
No one counts the words he's speaking
(Some questions should never be asked)
Answers are always ignorant

The Last Days

Strangest of feelings
A bygone thought
Like waiting forever for summer
Until you realize that your clothes are much too warm for the heat
I know you yearn for the water
But your skin will freeze over after you took one look at the sea
Dreams always seem brighter from a distance
Pretending is easier than knowing your fate
And yet you have an excuse
No one truly wants to polish mirrors
Blackness is composed of many colors

Again

Preserving the moment is without a future
Repeating the moment is sadly the truth
Behind closed eyelids the darkness hides nothing
Pain grows more vivid the longer you look
Anger is love and grief is confusion
Feel free to claim the stage as yours
They won't notice

Mind vs. Heart

Manipulating emotion
Might not be the wisest thing to do
But faith is still a rarity
Force a smile and let them trust you
And your lie
You've learned to take your chances
Even though your heart may suffer
Reason has the right-of-way
Choice is not an option

A Sense Of Not Belonging

Words may cheat by adding brightness
Picture books will lie to you
Softly painted hues of summer
Spring's the echo, autumn gone
A facade may leave you breathless
But breath can be just as useless as time
Innocence believes in nightmares

Opening Night

Bleeding pencil
Sparkling crystal
Powder snow that burns to ashes
A musical beginning
- But the curtain just fell
The will to remember, yet the need to destroy
Reluctance, repression, the final form is not the end
A song written in the sand that the waves washed away
One snowflake starts the avalanche

Chess

Endless thoughts crying for attention
And chess pieces
Moving flying running chasing
Without being touched
Rational thought, rational dreaming
Dreaming emotion and dreaming defeat
Move, move, move
Don't dare to move!
Interrupting self-destruction
With reality
Madness does not exist

I AM MADNESS

Bollywood

True inspiration does not bring delight
Sometimes feeling the muteness will cure restlessness
But mostly it doesn't
Grab the moment and hold on to the shadows
With all your might
For losing your thoughts would mean that they won
Eternal spring is what you're writing
Creation is never fueled by truth
Snowflakes burn brighter anyway

The Legacy

Don't stop singing
Don't start thinking
For now it's all that matters
I wouldn't expect them to understand
And neither would you
The loneliest moments are the ones that will last

Emergency

The feeling of emptiness
Not only in my heart
Listen to its elegy
Echoes of propriety
A scream is still breathing
But emotion is deaf
Just try to ignore it
For I'll do the same
Colors need no reasons to exist

Freedom

Creeping shadows far behind you
Icy flowers to your left
Predetermined where you're going
But true thoughts can shatter glass
A moment of terror
And destiny's call is still echoing in your mind
Walking through fire
Was easier than you thought
Or maybe caring makes the difference
Marks the final right to choose
The right decision?
Depends on the mindset
Thinking might save some
- You blink
And the moment has passed
Freedom 
You found it
Freedom
For whom?

Finale

Just close your eyes and listen

Just close your eyes and breathe

A feeling of hope overcomes you

A feeling of darkness and longing

Of finally breaking free

You could keep it forever

You know that

The feeling of eternally dying

The feeling of eternally flying

Golden Rays

Golden rays of deepest black

Rubies sparkle without shine

When the sun sinks song takes flight

Night has wings - is born to soar

The stars are ashes far beneath

The ocean will wash all away

But a circle cannot die

The Finest Line

I'm waiting for the fall
I'm waiting for your call
Tyranny 
Liberty
Dictate me all your pain
Reality- of cruelty
Your modesty is ill
Final freedom's destiny 
Never forget what you cannot forgive
Mistakes are lethal 
The world a sword
You know it better than me

Ruby Red

Moonlight

Midnight

The middle of our game

The end is always innocent

The roses always bare

Longing for infinity

I dream of softer sounds

Purpose can lead

But also diffuse

Sometimes the emptiest mind is the best

But judgement is not ours to make

Remember

Rebellion

All time must end
All things must change
All dreams burn down to resurrect
Rapunzel opened up her braid
Aurora cut the veil
The fairytales gave up their flight
One dragon chose to stay

Portrait of a Soul

A painting on the wall
No one will ever see
Cruel, kind and sleep-deprived
Just a spark too warm
Let me view the universe
The way these colors do
Are those the words I long to speak
Or has my heart gone mute?
How long does the mind keep on working
When we're already dead?

Explosion

Origin and mortal end
Hope and ashes - salty smell
Broken glorious wings to fly
Imperfection everlasting
Drunk with fever gleaming brightly
Alone forever
Lost within
Words are nothing but thoughts until they blow up

The Meaning of Truth

Darkness mixed with ice-cold fever
Chilling hope returns to you
Ignorance seems key to freedom
You know what you need to do
Heating up tomorrow's ashes
A sacrifice for humankind
Only you are to determine
Whether they or you are blind

Starlight

Burning candle
Sinking sunshine
Longing lost - Leave me alone!
Smoke upon the graying night sky 
Flower petals, ashes' flames
Worry just about true meaning
No one means to truly look
Golden bells of celebration
Tiny pearls : the ocean's pride
Seagulls, mermaids, wave in motion
Jump or swim or let all go

Broken Snowflakes

When the dust of the broken snowflakes
Burns and is lost in fire and screams
Rage seems like freedom
But hate can steal all
Flowing and flowing and flying away
Time might be endless, but space is still caged
Make the choice
Cry your teardrops
Smile or scream
Drown yourself
Feel free to listen, free to leave

Purity

The truth in your eyes gleams like a diamond
Sapphire snowflakes
Teardrops of stone
A halo of kindness
Flower in bloom
The sun is a legend of fever and dust
Freedom has won when laughter's a joke
Tiniest feather
Greatest of wings
A smile is the sweetest surrender

The Meaning Of Our Teardrops

Words on paper
Ink on sunshine
My only words upon your heart
Spirit that is telling jokes
I tell a thousand untold truths
My song - the ancient prophecy
Holds the wisdom I can't prove
The sea is deeper than we all are
Reality's too bright to see
Never trust in what you think
No one knows what knowledge is

Metaphors

Metaphors - we all are living
Why would I know what I want? 
Can you tell me what your name is? 
Who knows what they truly say?
Fire's coming - cold is dawning
The earth might shatter
We all live
You see them dancing in the sunlight
Waiting for the final night
Who knows whether life is real?
I know the ocean will succeed
Destiny alone will soar

The Lost Elegy

My raven leaves the silent sky
Free and forbidden, the spirit within
The black seagull has lost long ago
Dove's purest white was her defeat
So she chose freedom of mind and her music
Acceptance has lost the struggle of love
Now the ocean is her heaven
But the water's drying out
She's sailing the waves
Needs no one beside her
Forever and always in freedom alone
The sky would be heartbreak
But her heart's already gone
So there is nothing she could lose

A Diary For The Empty Souls

The ink flows from the feeling
'Till nothing but sadness remains
The words consist of teardrops
Blood covers the soul
My empty heart is filled with pain
Broken, lost and wounded
Your song is the weapon
Still stained by my blood
The blood my heart is crying
Drop by drop
The darkness grows
Consuming me
Deceiving me
Finally I'll drown in it
Forever

Underneath the Rose

I never knew
I never thought
It always seemed a miracle
Far away and distant
From life
My life
A single star behind the clouds
Unreachable
So I never tried
For there was no reason
I never thought there would be
But even stone is breaking
And even ice is melting
Even I am changing
Still some things never change
Longing equals falling

Reflecting On Our Reasons

Who is "you" ?
Who is "me" ? 
Who is "us" ?
And most important
Who are "they" ?

Sleeping Beauty

Sleeping beauty sleeps forever
Roses grow-her silent dreams
Shadows shine like blinding light
Her heart is locked, the key took flight
Morning dawns in deepest purple
Night's the awakening she's longing for
Falling is the sole escaping
Her cry for help died long ago

Dreaming

Eternal beauty
Is the silence
Happiness
Beneath the tears
Always there
Forever fading
The ocean is a single dream
Melody breaks into singing
Daydreaming's the highest low
Drowning in the own illusion
Moonlight melts the golden rays

Echoes

Screams are echoes
Laughter lies
Your eyes are the reflection
Of my unspoken truth
The key is there
Beneath your soul
The locks are breaking free
All of them but mine
My heart will stay with me

Fairytale

The princess in the tower
Will kill herself like smoke
Emotion caused by melody
Silence breaks the ice
Beauty conquers distance
Rhythm conquers all
Freedom is for everyone
Her heartbeat just for you
Mysteries are feelings
Feelings mean only pain
For they are what remains

Surrender

I'm doing what there is
But I just can't reach the stars
Heaven seems so far beneath
Hell's just a blade away
A trick to make you listen
A step to make you scream
A soulless cloud will keep on flying
Without a goal or dream
Your pain will be the treasure
Hidden under the rainbow's end
Together colors turn to black
The light will poison you
So you will die
But die alone
Your smile will be their conscience
So they will never wake
For death will conquer them
Their hearts will drown with the sea

Empty

Do you actually know what you're telling
When you're saying nothing at all?
Do you actually know what you're doing
When you're doing nothing at all?
Nothing but making me cry
On the inside

Shattered

Every time a teardrop falls
A heart breaks into pieces
While the sky is weeping rain
The soul is crying blood
And the eyes finally close
As the night's last breath dies

Stop

Don't look at me
That way
With sadness in the eyes
And emptyness
And silence
Come make my heart race fast again
Come make its voice speak up
Cause otherwise I feel like I'll forever bleed
And with me the world

For Helly

The black seagull rises
To dive into the sky
Lonely 
Forever
She has lost their game
Strong in appearance
But empty at heart
Her cry calls the shadows
As her hopes fade away

Hidden

The rhythm burns
Words turn to ashes
Silence's growing fast
While the key to all of this
Lies deep inside your heart
But it's hard to find

Dedicated To My Elementary School Teachers

They cheer on you
They smile to you
They speak with laughing voice
Open up!
We want to know
What's going on in you!
With all their grinning faces
They'll never understand
What I will never show

©Viktoria Buben 2012

No Title

You think about it
Read about it
Believe that you'll forget
Where's the story?
Where's the truth?
Why do you even care?


©Viktoria Buben 2012

My Mind

I'm reaching out
Throughout the rain
I try to see
I try to look
Right through the fog
But all I see
Drowns in the shadows
Reflection of our souls
Shining through our teardrops
Maybe
I'll never know
I'll never see
Who you truly are
But I'll try

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Reflection

She stands at the river
Stares into the water
Trying to see
You don't understand?
Well, you don't have to

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Screaming

Every day
And all the time
I try to flee the feeling
I try to shut it out
Pounding beats
A screaming voice
Almost
But not enough
Waiting for the mercy
Hoping it will come
Actually it shouldn't
It would do no good
Starting it for new
After the darkness
It would feed it
Not deleat it
But what would?

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Question for you

Is you a person
A description
Or simply an emotion?

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Cold

Nobody realizes
What nobody thinks
The darkness grows
The lights turn off
The musics fading out
Trust and love and faith and hope
Quietly fall to pieces
And maybe that's 
Why I'm afraid

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Living

Life lives from music
With stories within
Words come together
To make stories live
So sound is the key
That we all keep breathing

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Fog

I'm drowning in my feelings
With no emotions at all
I'm reaching through darkness
Touching nothing at all
I don't even have a goal

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Standing In The Breeze

Feelings are colours

That dance in the wind

With stars out of roses

And darkness within

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Random Thought

Plastic bags keep drifting
But sometime they fall down
Born to fly and born to die
Just as everybody

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Eternity

Why is it in this world

That almost nothing stays

Music stays the longest

But not for eternity

Not even for a lifetime

Or a single tear

The meaning passes

As you fall 

When you have reached the bottom

Of your deepest thought

In your last emotion

And never coming back

To stay

© Viktoria Buben 2012

Different

You scream when they are talking
You're running when they walk
You cry when they are laughing 
You're drowning when they swim
You're similar to me

There's More

You know me
You say
What I like
What I loathe
What I think 
What I mean
What I believe in
What I love
And what I do
You know me
You think


©Viktoria Buben 2012

Chanceless

It was ringing in my ear
It was screaming in my soul
Telling me to think about it
Telling me to find a chance
Convincing me I had to do it
That it was my destiny
I believed it
And I failed

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Forgotten

It used to be something

I didn't think about

It used to be something 

I just did

Something like breathing

Something like thinking

Something like making a choice

Things have changed

Time's racing by

And

Washes away all those things

Things like smiling

Things like laughing

Things like remembering you

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Lost

Life’s drifting by

Like a cloud in the breeze

Love’s losing light

Like a rose loses blood

Lie’s growing fast

While my laugh loses spark

©Viktoria Buben 2012

Thoughts

I look at you
I think
All the time
Why?
Just can't stop the thought
Just can't stop the pain
Though I want
I want it badly
I wonder why
My mind is always with you
That question in my head
It's there
It doesn't leave
It's surreal
It's painful
It's hopeless
And it's still there
No promise to leave
Ever

©Viktoria Buben 2011

Lies

It was the best time of my life
Summer all year 'round
A garden full with flowers
Just for us
I was glad
You were too
So thought I
But no
Suddendly I realized what I pushed away
The earth stood still
Oh, so many lies
Now I'm sitting here
Covered with tears
Thinking about the three words
I was betrayed by:
I love you
Oh, I never want to hear this again
Don't want to feel the pain again
Don't want so many lies again

 ©Viktoria Buben 2011

Something

Looking up
There she shines
Majestic
Impressing
A glowing ball
A perfect star
Necessary
Providing heat
Spending light
Allowing life
Without her something's missing
Something important
Very important
It's the same with you

©Viktoria Buben 2011

Music

Music is a present
Music is a joy
If you sing, your heart sings
If you dance, it enjoys
With a song on yor lips
You will smile all the time
And your heart will smile with you
Through your eyes, which will shine

 ©Viktoria Buben 2011

Something precious

It's precious
It's necessary
It's a wonder
It's a need
For everybody
I can't imagine
That I could live without it
Neither anyone else
It gives you hope when it's hopeless
It helps you up when you fall
It's with you when you're lonely
It lets you smile when you cry
It's friendship

©Viktoria Buben 2011

Memories

For Japan:

Memories
Water
All together
All mixed up
A bunch of thoughts
A lot of lies
Woven into that:
Me
And the water
The dark deep waves
The sound
Strange
The picture
Surreal
The thought
Impossible
Hidden under a layer of sorrow
Under a cloud of pain
Leaving me no choice
Only surrender
No
Not even that
I wouldn't be able to
Which leaves me plan B
But how?
Where?
What happened to you?
I try to think even if it's painful
I try to remember although it's excruciating
And then I get it
All at once
I remember
I wish I wouldn't

©Viktoria Buben 2011

So much

Looking around
So much to see
Snowflakes here
Sunshine there
Walking around
So much to feel
Winter's cold here
Summer's heat there
Turning around
So much to taste
Bitter tears here
So sweet love there
Sitting down
So much to think of
Stormy today
Sunny tomorrow

©Viktoria Buben 2011

Feelings

I'm standing here
Beneath you
But I feel alone
So alone
I feel like being locked in a room
Fireflames everywhere
No way to escape from this prison
I feel like being in the water
Without oxygen
No way to breath
I feel like a plant without sunshine
No way to grow
I feel like myself without you
No way to live

©Viktoria Buben 2011

Winter

(we need snow...)

Looking out of the window
What do I hear?
What do I see?
What do I feel?
I hear the wind
Singing its endless song
I see the snow falling down
Until the last bit of nude soil is gone
I feel the cold in your heart 
Wondering where it comes from


©Viktoria Buben 2011

Teardrops

Gone away

Where?

No answer

Gone

Like a snowflake in the summer

Like my teardrops in the ocean

Fast

Like a deer in the mountains

Like a bird in the sky

There is no way to follow

There is no way to find you

A teardrop

Running down my face

A second

A third

More and more

There is no way to hold them

There is no way to stop them

They’re falling into my cup of tea

It seems like an endless ocean

It seems like an endless stream

I think of us

All the time

About once when we met

About now when you’re gone

About the time we spent together

About the things you said

About the deep blue ocean

About the black in the night

I think of my salty teardrops

There in my face

Why did you leave me?

Why did you hurt me like that?

A salty teardrop runs into my mouth

The taste of farewell

I’m thinking about me

I’m thinking about you

I ‘m thinking about us

I’ve chosen the silence

I have made my choice

Your train is now leaving

I’m leaving with you

©Viktoria Buben 2011